Don’t say, ‘I am’; let Him be so totally that you are drowned in that totally you are drowned in that totality, absorbed, lost. Be a wave in the ocean, but don’t claim that you are separated from the ocean—that is the meaning of surrender.
The essential surrender happens within you, it has nothing to do with anybody outside you. The basic surrender is a relaxation, a trust – so don’t be misguided by the word. Linguistically, surrender means to surrender to somebody, but religiously, surrender simply mean trust, relaxing. It is an attitude rather then an act: you live through trust.
Once surrender has happened completely, the master becomes the door for you. Then a different world of light, life & bliss opens – satchitananda Hindus have called it. The true existence, the true consciousness, & the true bliss, satchitananda, becomes possible for you. The master becomes the door, and once you have attained this you are enlightened. Now you can help others to pass through your fire. Now you can help others to have a glimpse of the absolute, or to reach the ultimate and we dissolved in it.
But before you can become a master, you have to be totally a disciple, before you can teach, you have to learn, and before you can help, you have to be helped. You have to allow somebody to help you deeply. And that deep help is possible only when you are not there, because you are the disturbance, you are the hindrance.