AND I WILL BE WAITING THERE FOR YOU STILL… - OSHO

MY GOD THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO ARE PREPARED TO MURDER BHAGWAN. AFTER SEVEN LONG WEEKS OF WAITING WE WELCOMED BHAGWAN BACK TO BUDHHA HALL LAST NIGHT.SEVEN WEEKS FILLED WITH EVERY POSSIBLE VARIATION OF THE ANXIETY THAT MANIFESTS WHEN BHAGWAN IS NOT SPEAKING.-HE IS SICK- HOW SICK?-GOD I WISH HE’D COME OUT- JUST ONCE. I HOPE HE’S AI RIGHT. -I HEARD HE’S REALLY ILL.-I DON’T CARE IF HE NEVER COMES OUT AS LONG AS HE’S ALRIGHT…NO ONE HAD ANY IDEA JUST HOW SICK BHAGWAN HAD BEEN…WE NEARLY LOST HIM“MY BELOVED ONES…” HE BEGAN,HIS VOICE COMING FROM SO FAR AWAY-SO FAINT-SO GONE… I WAS SHOCKED. HIS EYES SEEMED TO HAVE SUNK SO FAR AND SOME HOW HIS HAT CLUNG TOO CLOSE TO HIS HEAD…“I HAVE BEEN AWAY FROM YOU TOO MUCH,TOO LONG,”-SO FAINT…ONE THOUSAND HEART RISE AND LODGE IN A THOUSAND THROAT AND EVERYONE IS CRYING.“THESE SEVEN WEEKS YOU WERE NOT AWARE… YOU WERE SIMPLY THINKING I AM SICK.”THE WORDS COME SO SLOWLY“I WAS STRUGGLING WITH DEATH. IT WAS A FIGHT BETWEEN DEATH AND YOUR LOVE. AND YOU SHOULD CELEBRATE THAT YOUR LOVE HAS BEEN VICTORIOUS.”OH! BHAGWAN IS THIS THIN STREAM OF LOVE REALLY STRONG ENOUGH TO BRING YOU BACK? TO HOLD YOU WITH US?“-THESE SEVEN WEEKS HAVE BEEN A FIRE TEST. WITHOUT YOUR KNOWING YOU HAVE ALWAYS, EACH MOMENT OF THESE SEVEN WEEKS, BEEN A TREMENDOUS HELP TO ME. WITHOUT YOUR LOVE IT WAS NOT POSSIBLE FOR ME TO OVERCOME THE POISON, BECAUSE WITHOUT YOUR LOVE THERE WAS NO NEED FOR ME TO STRUGGLE EVEN.”MY GOD THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO ARE PREPARED TO MURDER BHAGWAN. THERE ARE ORGANISATION, AT LEAST ONE GOVERNMENT- THAT IS SO AFRAID OF OUR MASTER THAT THEY ARE WILLING AND ABLE TO DESTROYING HIM AND ARE COMMITTED TO DESTROYING HIS WORK.WHERE DOES THIS LEAVE US? HIS PEOPLE? WHAT DOES IT FEEL LIKE WHEN IT SETTLES IN YOUR BELLY- KNOWING THAT THIS WHOLE CIRCUS ALMOST ENDED A FEW WEEKS AGO?AND STILL BHAGWAN REMAINS HERE TO SEE US THROUGH.“THESE SEVEN WEEKS I HAVE BEEN ONLY THINKING OF YOU. IT WOULD HAVE BEEN IMMENSELY PAINFULL FOR ME TO LEAVE YOU IN THIS BEAUTIFUL STATE WHEN YOU HAVE STARTED GROWING UPWARDS. MY GARDEN IS STILL A NURSERY. I WOULD LEAVE MY BODY REJOICINGLY, THE DAY I SEE YOU ALL HAVE BLOSSOMED AND YOU HAVE RELEASED YOUR FRAGRANCE AND YOU HAVE ATTAINED YOUR DESTINY. THE DAY I SEE THE GREAT PILGRIMAGE IS OVER FOR YOU, THEN I CAN GO WITH A DANCING HEART AND MELT INTO THE UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUSNESS.AND I WILL BE WAITING THERE FOR YOU STILL…”